My Heart Can't Stop Missing you!

Today marks 11 years since my brother, Micah, went home to be with Jesus.  

 

Eleven years ago!

How could it be that long ago

That I last heard your laughter,

Last saw your smile,

Last listened to another of your jokes?

Your memories never fade,

But sometimes it seems impossible

That it really was eleven years ago.

To many things have occurred since then,

Too many new stories have been written,

Yet some how you are weaved in with memories

That shape our lives from day to day.

You drift through the air

In a thought, in a word, in a short story

Told of you. You're there yet it was still

Eleven years ago that I last heard your breath.

Too many years of silence,

Yet you still speak.

Too many years without you,

Yet your story still lives.

But oh, how I long to throw

My arms around you once more,

To listen to yet another joke

That always made me laugh,

To hear you sing and play your guitar–

Oh, to hear that voice again,

Loud and clear and beautiful,

Singing your praises to him.

Can I not dance just once more

To your song?

Can I not laugh

Once more at your joke?

Can I not ruffle your hair

Just one more time

Or play with your pens on your desk

And write my name in your notebook

And write silly poems for each other?

Just one more time, Micah!

Just one more time!

But, no, those years are gone

And instead I smile remembering

That new memories are yet to come,

When we can laugh and dance

Joke and run and even sing together

Around our king's throne.

But until that day,

It does not stop me from my heart

Missing you.

Sometimes with tears in my eyes

Or a hint of laughter on my lips.
As long as this earthly body

Separates me from you,

I will keep on missing you.