But I Choose to Remember


Some people may choose to forget
Because memory causes pain.
But I chose to remember,
Even though I cry like the rain.
I choose to remember that smile of yours
Even though it makes me cry.
I remember your laugh
But it makes me ache inside.
I remember the way you strummed your guitar
And how it made me dance with joy.
But I don’t dance when I remember.
Instead my body shakes with sobs untold.
 
Why do I choose this road of memory,
When memory is suffering
And forgetfulness is bliss?
I can’t explain a pain worth enduring
Yet I chose to remember and not forget.
Days come and days go by.
People ask how the brother did die
And I tell them the how, but not the why?
I remember. I did not forget.
His story lives on. I choose to share.
I will not forget.
But lest you think it easy
For me to tell his story once more.
Remember, I chose to remember
And not forget.
And memory hurts.
 

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  1. Yes, it is painful and hurts to remember but forgetting would be more painful. I still cry but I love to talk about Micah and I love every memory even the ones that hurt the most.Thank you for remembering with me. I am so thankful for you and the poems and stories from your heart that bring back memories. I cry every time. But don't stop! That is OK. I know that God holds my tears in His bottle. They are in His book and some day He will wipe away all my tears. Thank you Jesus!

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    1. Thanks, Mom, for leaving such a sweet and encouraging comment. :)

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  2. This past Wednesday Priscilla sang one of Micah's songs for our college and career group. I was moved to tears remembering how precious Micah was. He is no doubt smiling from heaven. God is good.

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    1. Hi Ben,
      Thanks for taking the time to read this. That is so cool that Priscilla did one of his songs for the Bible Study group. I wish I could have been there to hear it. I miss hearing his songs being played. I always took so much delight in hearing my brothers worship God with music. It is something that I miss greatly these days. ;)

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