The Contemplations of a Single Woman


Today has been a rather quiet day. I sit in the house alone, because all my roommates have gone to visit their family over Thanksgiving break. My home being too far away, I stay here.

The house is very still; no one to talk to except myself and I am not  one who talks aloud to myself very often, thus, quietness reigns.

Many thoughts have gone through my head in the tranquility of it all. Every woman dreams of getting married some day. I can't say that I have not done my share of the same. In fact, being alone some times makes me want to get married all the more, for there is one thing that I hate and that is being in a house all alone. It makes me sad; no one to talk to; no one to listen to; just no one except myself. Some people would love it; they like the quiet; they don't care to talk; they don't want to hear the nonsense of others; they just want a book and a quiet nook. Yet me, I can't hardly even read a book if I am by myself, because its just to lonely. Being alone in the house makes me think that I could probably never be one of those single women and that marriage is definitely my calling. But then maybe that is not true after all. I could always keep myself so busy that I would never have to be alone or think about being alone, thus, maybe singleness is my calling.

Then I start cooking myself a meal and I realize that once again I have made myself way to much and, well, it sure would be nice to have a husband to share it with. Maybe marriage is my calling after all. On second thought, I wouldn't need a husband to share my food with, I could just be really hospitable and always be having company so that I would have people to cook for. Not only that, but I would feel sorry for my husband if he had to sit across from me and watch me eat, because my manners just aren't that lovely. Only thing is, that needs to change any way if I am going to have guests all the time, because they would be no less disgusted over me than a husband would.

Then another thought comes to my head, I love children! I love holding wee little babies; kissing chubby cheeks; wiping away tears; listening to toddlers say big words. I could never be single, because I just have to have kids. Actually, I could just have an orphanage, then I could be with lots of kids all the time.

Well, my brain and my heart continue to argue back and forth between marriage and singleness. The conclusion it always comes down to is this, God is in control of my life and if he would be most glorified by my getting married than I will in his timing. Yet if God will be more glorified in my being single all my life, than that is what I shall be, and I shall be a happy single girl, too.

Right now I am single and it is a glorious thing and a gift from God. I can continue to cook and cook lots for my roommates or anyone else. I can babysit children and love them like crazy. I can be in the house by myself and clean, write, or read and not be sad, because I will soon have roommates coming back who I can talk and listen to and not only that, but  I have homework to do and that should keep me busy for a while.

Well, enough random thoughts for today. I must get busy. Much to be done. With thorough cleaning and homework glooming, I must skid-daddle.


The crazy girl,
         Hannah

 

Comments

  1. Only Christ can truly meet our needs, not a husband or children. Like Elisabeth Elliot says, if you are single God has given you the gift of singleness. If you are married God has given you the gift of being married. So enjoy the state in which you are in when you are in it. That does not mean it is always easy to walk in the path the LORD has for us, but we know His grace is sufficient. Those times when we are lonely God meets us if we press in to know Him more and look to Him, for He is our joy. He is our peace. There is so much you can do as a single woman to glorify God that you can't do when you are married. If you are pursuing Him then you will be satisfied.

    28 But even if you do marry, you have not sinned; and if a virgin marries, she has not sinned. Nevertheless such will have trouble in the flesh, but I would spare you.

    32 But I want you to be without care. He who is unmarried cares for the things of the Lord—how he may please the Lord. 33 But he who is married cares about the things of the world—how he may please his wife. 34 There is[a] a difference between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman cares about the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit. But she who is married cares about the things of the world—how she may please her husband. 35 And this I say for your own profit, not that I may put a leash on you, but for what is proper, and that you may serve the Lord without distraction.

    Continue to glorify God with your life. He will bring you a husband and children, in His timing, if it is His will. You can trust Him. He is for you. So keep living for the Lord and being a blessing to those around you. Pursue Christ. Treasure Him in all you do and pursue the things He puts on your heart to do.I love you.

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